There is something remarkable about going through a period in your life when you feel like you are going to die (figuratively, emotionally, spiritually, intellectually, or even physically). There is a freedom and a boldness and a perseverance that comes along with staying alive against all odds. There is a peace that comes along with it too that is beyond compare. To you, the greatest fear of everyone else (death) is believed to be a near certainty for you, so you make peace with it.
I don’t pretend to know what people with Cancer, AIDS, Leukemia, Heart Disease go through. While I have worked in hospitals and Oncology wards, the inner life of adults suffering with terminal illness is something I do not know. What I know is when I was a child I had chronic Asthma and Bronchitis which seemed like forever. My mother and I spent more nights with me in an Emergency Room than I care to think about. The most vivid memory that I have from that time was thinking…I’m going to do what I want to do because I don’t know if I’m going to be here tomorrow.
Interestingly enough, 18 years after I kicked the diagnosis of Asthma from my life I have become one of the “normal” people who fears far too many things that are far weaker than death. I have shrunk back from opportunity, back from challenges, and back from responsibilities because of fears far less rational than impending death. What this video means to me is a reminder that I have survived a marathon with death and come out the other side stronger. What this means to me is that everything else is secondary, unless I make it more than it is. What this means to me is something I have long cherished and long forgotten:
That which doesn’t kill me, had better start running!
- Is It Asthma, Bronchitis, or Both? (everydayhealth.com)